It's amazing how long I can cry sometimes. I cannot understand how I don't completely dehydrate myself and shrivel into a prune. Sometimes I'm crying so hard it feels as though my heart is going to slowly slide up my throat and be squeezed out of my mouth. I hold my head in my hands and I just cannot stop crying. The knot in my throat, that starts the whole thing off, spreads through my chest to my gut, until my whole body is essentially curled up in a big fat squeezing feeling, shaking with the cough-like sobs. Squeezing all the tears and sobs that are in my entire being out like a citrus juicer. My face squishes into a grimace and tears flood down my cheeks, purging and spewing out the hurt. Afterwards, my heart feels like it weighs a million tons while I feel so relieved and exhausted at the same time. Being heartbroken sucks ass, but I feel f-ing alive.